So, in the past few days, I have gone from biting my tongue over the newly-arrived “Serenity Day” plan which “just happened” to pick the same day as the charity screenings proposal; to starting to make my position clear in non-confrontational arenas; to having a number of attention-influencers get my back; to a near flame-out over the whole thing erupting today.
I have gone from being irked and irritated to feeling sick to my stomach.
I absolutely, positively, guarantee everyone here that the press coverage come June 23 will now be “fans try to get more of what they are fans of” instead of what it would have been, which was “fans try to do for others.”
I pretty much feel like I’m going to vomit.
This entire time, as much of a challenge as it’s been to get people to pick up on the idea, and as frustrating as it’s been at times, I’ve enjoyed working on it. While wanting to see the movie on the big screen of course is self-interested, the point was to harness that self-interest to do good for other people.
Now, I have to spend every other moment fighting back the impression that this is just part of yet another instance of fans campaigning to get more of what they’re fans of.
The point of this was supposed to be pure, outward, and other-directed. It was supposed to be a joy to work on.
Now, it’s drudgery. A chore. I have to hold my nose every time I wade into helping someone answer their questions about the screenings. And it will only get worse once the press gets wind of June 23 efforts.